Thursday, August 21, 2008

the last leg, and a hypothesis

i've been terrible about keeping up with my european adventures thus far. to sum up, i'm out of denmark and now traveling about western europe with my friends corrie and sarah. we spent three days in prague (czech republic), and are headed still to vienna, salzburg (the hills are alive...) munich, and hamburg, germany where we will fly back to the states. the 31st, to be exact.

school, DIS.. was pretty amazing. i did an alright studio project in a week and a half, but more importantly LIVED - commuted, shopped, cooked, slept, entertained myself- in a foreign country for seven weeks. and survived. i met people from other parts of the country that i still can't quite believe i'm not going to see when i get home. with some people, you feel like you've always known them.

we were discussing doing 'trades' a la professional football teams, to get friends from RISD, u wash, and etc to trade places with unsavory characters in our program back in cincinnati. wishful thinking...

anyway, to my hypothesis:

i have a theory that there are two types of people in this world of ours.

with group a, once friends or people familiar to them are out of sight, i.e. gone for long periods of time, they are out of mind.

with group b, friendship with others continues despite the bonds of time elapsed and distance traveled.

group a friends are alright, if you all go to the same college or are in the same town or are on the same school schedule. and don't get me wrong, they mean completely well and don't intentionally drop friends that are away. it's just, you know... you get busy with the people and things that are immediately surrounding you, and everything else falls away.

i love my group a friends, but know that only if i make a gigantic effort, i will not see or hear from them. in case you haven't noticed, i am something of a nomad. hopping back and forth from co-op to school, staying til june, not starting til september, and now running around europe all summer!! it's ridiculous.

so this is why my closest of friends, the only ones i know i can truly rely on... come from group b. we are a smaller group, but understand that we'll see each other when we see each other, and when we do nothing will have changed, or only gotten better. we are all travelers in our own way, doing our own thing, and reminding others when they forget where we are and what we're doing. being at UC has forced my friends there and i to become this way. leaving each other every three months.. well, we just pick up again where we left off. i know i'll see kristen and alice for yoga again in the fall. cary will wait patiently for us to unite again in winter. i'll see dana when i see her. my trusty circle of two high school friends that i consistently see... we support each other, no matter the distance. and i am so grateful for it.

can group a switch and become a group b, or vice versa? i am not sure. is it possible to maintain bosom level contact with every friend you've ever had in your life? of course not, we would all go insane. besides, that's what facebook is for, right?

but anyway, whether you're a or b, i'll be home for three weeks in september. i'll see you when i'll see you.

fin.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

i miss you more than i should

Digging a hole and the walls are caving in
Behind me air's getting thin but I'm trying
I'm breathing in
Come find me
It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home before you
And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel

This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

I know you're scared that I'll soon be over it
That's part of it all
Part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won't fall

And I hate the phone
But I wish you'd call
Thought being alone
Was better than was better than

And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

-fear you won't fall, joshua radin

it's not that i miss... home... that much. i could live here forever. but

i miss you. more than words.
and it sucks.